&♥the worst nightmare has happened again .

yup here to blog .loss for words to say anw .i dunno what to say .something is really wrong within me and i dunno whats it .definitely its not because i don't love her anymore because i do still love her .is it me ?or is it you ?or is it the both of us that is changing to the situation that is changing .i kinda missed the 3rd mnth monthsary .because it was the part where i feel like no problem can ever pop up again .i feel like we are closer then ever before .but came today .something is wrong in me .i dunno what the fuck is it .its my worst nightmare ever .i woke up at the sight of it .guess i could nvr explain it in words how the dream is abt .surreal .

&♥sweet monthsary

(baby's bear bear !)
(act cute picture. pffts .)


(trying to keep baby awake therefore making a stupid face -.-)

(after dinner !)

(cool right. i know ~)

(sweet sweet couple :D)

(baby shopping )

(i am optimus prime !haha .)

(completed bear bear !)

(wearing clothes for our beloved bears!)

(darling and i combing our darling )

(nicey pic!)

(my bear bear : name is sky )

(sweet sweet love )

Okay !my day started off like this .Picked up darling from home and sent her to sch. as per usual .haha .Then we went to sch with laughs that were unerasable from our faces. Then once baby was outside her class ,she passed me a love note.Had some minor errors but still melted me just as much! thanks darling !
Then came after school .we went to vivo city .To do build a bear !woohoo !costed uo 116 dollars .i treated baby darling because i told her it would be her 3rd monthsary present .then she was so happy then she keep flooding me with kisses .haha .woops .kinda liked being flooded with kisses .haha .

Baby .3 months passed. and i have never thought of stopping to love you .Thanks for this unforgettable love .

&♥finally things are gg smoothly

(baby wore formal clothing today !!!haha .thought that she look exceptionally pretty completely mesmerized by her today! haha .but another reason is because she looked like my wife :D)

okay okay .baby bugged me to bloggy again. haha .so here i am blogging ..haha .ups and downs in my life ,but totally glad that we came out alright !woohoo .haha .today have dinner with baby's parents at sakura ,baby's parents kinda treated me to the dinner even though i was the on who invited them out ,kinda feel real bad abt it .haha .

darling .this feeling shared between us aint js love .Its stronger than love .Its something that cnnt be explained in words .But all i can tell u is this feeling is something i would never ever want to let it slip out of my fingers. because my heart and my soul tells me that u are that one i am always been looking for .

PS :Still in love with u after everything we been thru

&♥baby lets nt think about things that are negligible

(picture taken on the day me and baby went to seoul garden)

Okay okay .got bugged by darling to blog .Okay blogging now .Nothing much really happened .Okay la have is have la .But i dn really want to think abt it because i feel like its useless thinking abt it .What for harp on a topic that no body wants to hear or get hurt hearing it right ?Haha .

Anw .I love u darling .

&♥remembering of the past

A sudden silence came to my mind .My mind isn't working anymore like it used to .Remembering of the times where i laughed my ass off with my parents ,with my loved one ,called my family


Suddenly things changed ,U went out an found another girl .U went out and said u were working but in the end wht happened ?U had sex with a girl ,oh no no no ,Not behind ur wife's back ,But also in front of ur wife .What the hell are u ?Sex maniac ?


She forgave u ,u didnt change ,u nvr wanted to change .What wrong with u again ?Is there something wrong with ur brain ?A lady ,A nearly perfect lady in my eyes ,Is waiting for u to come home one day and tell him that u love her .But where were u ?nooo .U went out ,U left us there ,alone in the dark.


Then finally u decided to change ,But did u realise its too late ?Because by the time u decided to change ,all of us nvr needed u anymore .I found my loved one ,my soul mate ,my future ,sister found her soul mate ,She ,who once loved u so deeply ,decided to give up hope one u .Don;t tell us u want to rewind time .Beacuse everybody knows that time cant be rewinded .



Get this point right dad .I nvr needed u in my life .I am stronger than u tink i am .I can take care of myself better than u think i can .Sorry .But i don't need u as a dad .All i need would be she ,her and only her .

&♥baby ,from this moment on ,i am sorry .

Sorry for the recent not blogging .A lot of things happened .I made baby cry again .Sighs .I dunno whats gg on within the emotions within me .I cant seem to control them anymore .But now i know why .Its the anticipation of me meeting you everyday ,the anticipation of me hearing ur voice every morning ,the anticipation of having u in my arms ,is making me feel uneasy .One day not having all that makes my mood swing like crap .Baby i am sorry ,because for letting u tear again ,Letting a tear drop down ur beautiful little cheeks again .

The list of 20 sorries to darling

1) sorry for nt perking up ur day

2) sorry for once chaning

3)Sorry for changing

4)sorry for making u stress up over me

5)sorry for not telling u everything

6)sorry for hurting your feelings

7)sorry for doing things that u dislike

8)sorry for not getting u things that u love

9)sorry for making u tear once again

10)sorry for not holding up to my promises once again

11)sorry for not showering u with hugs when u need them

12)sorry for not showering u with kisses when u need them

13)sorry for not giving u the best of everything

14)sorry for not being able to be there for u when u need me

15)sorry for treating u like sean aaron

16) sorry for giving u the cold shoulder this afternoon

17)sorry for not giving in to you

18)sorry for not spending enough time with you

19)sorry for making u hear break once again

20)lastly ,sorry for making u feel that i'll leave u

But darling ,thanks for giving in to me ,thanks for giving me your everything ,thanks for letting me feel this love that i never felt before so deeply ,Thanks for everything u have given me ,from a simple kiss and a holding of hands from the first day we stead till now .Thanks for giving me 2 shirts and a jacket ,thanks for treating me lunch when i am broke ,thanks for giving me ur love.

lastly ,Baby thanks for being so perfect .

&♥it was your love i have always dreamed of

okay okay !Been real long since i ever updated my blog .Hmm .up to date still doing well .a lot of ups and downs in my love life ,tears shed ,anger vent ,but still i can stil proudly hold my baby's hand and tell everyone she is still mine.

I know the past few weeks, we argued ,quarrelled, but this week ,is up to date the best one of my life. Why ?Countless of hugs given from baby ,Countless of kisses given by baby too ,and of course ,Baby showered tons of love on me .Make me feel damn appreciated .haha .

Baby .no more inferiority to other people .Because to me ,u are just simply ,PERFECT .

♥Baby its only 18 more days .

(2nd month )
(2nd date)

(1st month)

Sunshine .Looking at all those photos sometimes can tick tears to roll down my cheeks .I remember everything that we been through ,I don't forget .Why ?Because those moment was the moments that i really smile my best ,Cry my hardest ,have fun the most. All thanks you to .Because of you who entered my life ,it made my life a whole lot better .I know recently there is a lot of ups and downs ,but i always knew that we would come out fine .Why ?Because i know out hears are interwined and we will nvr let one another go because u mean simply too much to me and life just isn't going to be the same without you by my side ,And i know it goes to u too .Looking back at the photos again ,I know u miss those times ,so do i.But it will be just another 18 more days before we celebrate out 3rd month together .baby ,I promise to be there forever for u whenever u need me .Just like how u promised to be there for me whenever i need you .Thats is a promise of a lifetime .Baby be my now till forever will u ?I love you .

PS I LOVE YOU

♥One step forward ,Two steps back .

Listening to the song Not meant to be by theory of a deadman .First time the song finally got to me .A lot of thoughts are gushing through my brain at this very instance .Don't know what to say .Don't know what to do .I maybe a happy go lucky son of a bitch .I maybe a person who can smile his ass off regardless of how many problems are laid ahead of me .Maybe i am a person who can just joke around with anyone, at anytime ,at anywhere, regardless of how my mood is for that day .Confide ?Yes one person and only one .Thats all .Who else can i turn to ?What else can i do ?Hate this feeling within me now .Feeling that no one actually know what i am deep within. I am just a happy person with a hollow within .

♥Baby ,Our children are forever missed .

Today begin with a smile on my face .Spent the day in school again .With baby dearest .Eaten mos burger for lunch .Baby treated me .Thanks beloved .Then after school came .We received a call from out rabbit giver ,Christiana ,Saying that we have to return the rabbits .Me and baby cried out hearts out .But thn i gave a call to christiana after that ,Talking to the AVA personnal .I realised that our rabbits have skin cancer .I quickly brought me and beloved babies to see christiana .Vet performed a check-up on them .Realised that Aj (which was mine )had third stage skin cancer .Bj (Beloved one )also contact skin cancer but was second stage .Had to put them to sleep instead of letting them suffer .AJ died beside his loved one .Bj died in my arms .Cried my heart out when that happened .I miss them lots ..I was starting to get attached to them and this happened .

Beloved ,we shall save up $500 dollars and give it all our best for the nxt rabbit we have.I love you .Thanks for letting me enter your life and Thanks for entering mine too .

♥Baby its a huge responsibility for us ,but we will make it through .

Okay .Today was the start of school .Boring !However finally had a whole day to spend with dearest ,w/o the fear of the parents catching us holding hands or the parents catching us kissing .Pffts .However though for this lame facilitator ,there he said 'I have realised that you two are openly showing your affection for each other "Wanna know whats my first reaction ,kiss ass sucker -.- .If u don't have anyone to show ur affection for i understand ,because of your bulging fats ?Definitely not .But one thing for sure is because of your cannot be bearable BO .So please get away from me next time .And leave beloved denise alone too .Don't pollute our romantic air -.- .Then went with dearest to pick up our children ,BJ and AJ (Don't ask me why it has such lame names but ya beloved chose it and i pretty much love it ) .They were..super off size from what we expected them to be ?They were huge -.- .We though they were small .But whatever .Above its the picture where i played with them and fed them food .Had lots of fun with them .Thanks darling for making this all happen once again ,if it was not for you ,There would be noh one called sky ,a person who really feels that you have lighten up him life .Even the smallest things you do are so simply magnified to become the biggest thing u would ever do .A simple exampel would be a peck on the lips .Maybe to some people it is normal .But to me ,It mean a billion .Why ?Because its a kiss from my beloved ,A kiss that symbolises how much i mean to her ,A kiss that symbolises how much she misses me ,A kiss that symbolises how much she loves me .And also the same ,A kiss from me to her means that much too .

Sweetheart ,open your eyes and read this line closely ,Noh matter how much trouble are ahead of us ,I wont mind because as long as i have u by my side ,I am simply that damn confident that we will be together even through the darkest storms ,and thats why i love you .

♥Baby don leave me.

Today started out special .Beloved and i cried our hearts again .I nvr thought i would say this but if time were to rewind i would want to go through it again .Maybe your may ask why .My reason is perfectly simple .Because of this incident ,It made me realise how important Beloved was to me ,and how important i was to her .Things are better left unsaid between us ,but today you melted me ,why ?You actually told me not to leave you ..Crying .I was touched .I never expected you to cry again ..Because i thought things that we shared are not only special ,they are more then special .Thanks darling .